specimxn

implore me not to care about you and all i
can say is how does that actually work
you tell me it's harm reduction, citing the ramblings
of dead white men, while i am secure in the knowledge
that, were they alive, i would give them gender envy:

this group chat, this discord that lives up to its name,
is where universal love goes to die: watch my faith in humanity
disappear like mist in a quiet window as you
performatively contemplate me. is it actually a crush
or just scientific inquiry—i'll never know
so long as you treat me like your favorite specimen

i am the polished wings of cicadas & the slow fading of
midnight rain//breaking & how can i explain to you
that you should release into me or anyone &
is this what you think allyship is?
as i watch you (trans)vestigate my every desire.